Paalam, Kaibigan

Matagal-tagal ko na ring pinag-isipan
ito. Matagal nga tayong magkakilala,
matagal na rin na tayo'y magkasama. Mga
alaalang masasaya na kailang man hindi
malilimutan. Tayo'y nagtapos ng
sekondariang edukasyon at nangakong
hindi magwawatak. Pasensya na kaibigan
hindi ko matutupad ang pangakong ito.
Masyado ka nang naging mataas. Naaalala
ko pa noong iniiwan mo ako para sa mga
"bago" mong kaibigan. 'Wag ka ng
magkaila. Alam ko na iba ang tingin mo
sa akin. Lagi mo lang akong sinasamahan
tuwing hindi mo sila gusto. Karamihan
naman sa nakilala ko ganon.
Paminsan-minsan ay gusto mo ring
mapalapit sa akin ngunit hindi mo magawa
iyon. Alam mong hindi ako ganoong
palausap. Pero kahit ganoon ang
pinapakita ko sa iyo, alam mo namang
higit pa sa kaibigan ang turi ko sayo.
Para na kitang kapatid.

Ngunit sa mga panahong ito, ikaw'y
nagbago. Nagkaroon ka ng mas maraming
kaibigan. Unti-unting lumayo tayo sa
isa't isa. Mahirap mag-aral sa isang
unibersidad na itinuturing pinakamaganda
sa ating bansa. Ang daming dapat gawin.
Sa isang kisap-mata, hindi na ako
nakakatanggap ng mga text sa iyo.
Nagpapadala ka na lng ng mensahe tuwing
kailangan mo ako. Hindi kita masisisi
sa pagkat kahit ako'y hindi na rin
masyadong nagpapadala ng mensahe tuwing
kailangan mo ako.

Hindi alintana sa akin na marami ka
ring problema. Na ayaw mo itong ipakita
sa amin. Sadyang nasaktan ako doon.
Gusto mo bang ipahiwatig na plastikan
lang ang pakikitungo namin sa iyo o
masyado mong iniingatan ang imahe mo
noong nasa hayskul pa tayo?

Masakit mang isipin na magiging ganito
ang estado ng ating pagkakaibigan.
Ayoko nang umasa pa na babalik ang dati
mong pagkatao. Hindi na ako sasama sa
landas na gusto mong tahakin. Sanay na
naman ako na maghanap ng bagong landas
kahit gaano pa man ito kahirap.
Hanggang dito na lamang, kaibigan.
Hanggang sa muling pagkikita. Paalam.

WooHoo!

After the long wait I've finally done it! With some help from a software, of course!

I'm proud to present to you, the photo mosaic of Mga Diwata ng Sining in a photo mosaic using photos of my High school class mates and friends! Enjoy

will to continue

In this last semester I've been thinking on whether to continue pursuing my present college course (which is BA Communication Research in Mass Comm) of to find another one that I would like. I'm not against the comm res people there. I mean they are really good and their salary can be quite competitive especially the sidelines. It made matters worse when I took this two subjects which I like most -- the SocSci 3 (exploring gender and sexuality) and Philo 10 (approaches to philosophy).

SocSci 3 became one of the subjects I do like to take as a GE since it gives me knowledge as well as entertains me really well. The subject matter tackles about what is gender and sexuality, the differences between them, the cultural aspects of it, etc. (If someone tells me that I like it because I have a high grade from that subject, your wrong. Even before taking the subject, I already liked the idea of "dissecting" of sexuality and gender.

Philo 10, on the other hand, gives us insight of different philosophical approaches to life. As Prof. Rubicon Soberano tells us that there are in fact three main approaches (religious, scientific, and ideological) to philosophy. Each one is clearly distinctive of each other yet it seems to be in "jive" with each other.

With my freshman year coming past through me, I have to think about my own future. Yet this future is still unknown to me, as my past is. But it helps me wonder, what is my past really is, what am I doing now (other than writing my blog of course) and what will happen to me some time after now? It would deem as unwise to jump to an early conclusion. So I'll just continue to post my thoughts 'til the very end.

Life As We Know It

Damn! It's been like while since I watched that show. If i cabn still remeber the synopsis right, it is about 3 friends in their high school days. It deals with the "problem" of an average teen age high school male student (I think you already know what I meant).

It also took me for quite sometime to continue my blog. Will see you on next posting